It's easy for us to talk the talk, but can we practice what we preach at the moment of truth? Can we find the courage within ourselves to turn the other cheek and to act upon a higher consciousness? It is often difficult to deactivate our self defense system we call the Ego, it is the automatic assumption that everyone is out to get you and that no one can be trusted. That being said, I have a recent story that I'd like to share regarding a personal test of consciousness.
Finding Their Way Back Home
It was about 9:50pm last night and I was on my way home after visiting Rachel at work, she had a late shift that night and I would be asleep by the time she got home. I swung by CVS to pick up some toilet paper to hold us over until we could go shopping for a better deal over the weekend. After checking out I gave the cashier my signature smile and a genuine "good evening" before proceeding to my car; I had just placed my right foot on the floor mat when I heard a faint voice off to my right.
"Sir! Excuse me, sir!"
It was a woman's voice, meek and shy, almost afraid to grab my attention. This woman was no higher than my chest and hesitantly approached me, I immediately assumed she needed a jump for her car. I noticed her stressed-out male companion by their seasoned looking sedan which swiftly set the emotional frequency. My immediate assumption was wrong, upon hearing her out she needed $5 for enough gas to get back home. Her story was overly detailed which immediately rose my suspicions. I can almost always tell if someone is trying to trick or deceive me, and this just felt like one of those moments. Perhaps it was my Ego attempting to control my consciousness. On the surface it appeared to be a partially thought out scam, but I went through with it anyway. I looked in my wallet, but it was barren. I frowned, shook my head, paused, smiled, held up a finger and said "be right back".
I went back into CVS, waited in line, purchased a ¢30 carmel candy and opted for a $10 cash back. Upon leaving the store the woman was waiting right outside the automatic doors with her back against a pillar. I smiled and handed her $10 folded up with five $1 bills on the outside. She continued with how embarrassed she was and offered to take my number to return the money in the future. I smiled, held my palms up to her and said "it's a gift, take it".
Food for Thought - If the story is overly detailed it's probably a lie. People often times feel as though more detail is better when trying to fabricate a ruse; this is not true. The best lies are built upon a solid foundation of truth and lightly sprinkled with deception to confuse and misdirect. Also watch their eyes, if they look to their right they're thinking of something, if they look to their left they're lying about something. In my experience, observing the eyes doesn't always work because some people just have trouble with eye contact in general.
If It Looks Like A Duck and Quacks Like A Duck...
It's probably a duck - and by duck I mean scam. Let me paint the scene from the woman's perspective for a moment. She sees a 24 year old caucasian male in all white scrubs getting into the driver's side of a Ford Mustang. To them I probably looked like a Butterball Turkey; a medical professional with a lot of money and they would feel less guilty about asking someone who appears to have more money. We were in a CVS parking lot and they were asking for gas money; I know the area and there are no gas stations close by. Knowing all this I went through with it anyway because I got this tap on my shoulder that it was meant to be. Maybe they will use that money for alcohol or drugs, or maybe they'll use that money to help pay for rent because they're really struggling and don't know what else to do. Maybe one of them will have a stroke of consciousness and it will bring them one step closer to realizing that hard drugs and drinking only hold you back in life. Maybe they'll stumble across my blog and realize that they took advantage of someone with an open heart, then perhaps change their ways. Or maybe they won't change their ways and remain at the bottom of the well, living a life of self-inflicted struggle. Maybe they aren't meant to change their ways because someone else is meant to be their guiding light out of the darkness. Perhaps they have a preconceived notion that the 'wealthy' aren't as cold-hearted as the media attempts to make them out to be. Maybe that's their role in human experience, to be scammers and bottom-feeders. It's not my place to judge them for these things because that is their place in the world right now and I don't know who they really are or where they're going.
See, I'm not so smart as some other people who think they definitively know how the world works. I'm not so quick to come up with excuses as to why I shouldn't be charitable. I'm not as narrow-minded as others to assume that a beggar is only a beggar because they have some kind of addictive vice. If anything, the only real truth is that we know nothing about how the world works and that we know nothing of where our lives will take us.
I very well could have been taken advantage of. In fact, there's a high probability that I was but it obviously happened for a reason. I know that I've done nothing wrong in life to deserve being deceived into being charitable. If there's anything I've learned in my years it's that we are all part of a interconnected web of fates and paths. The mind of God is infinite and highly complex, each of our paths intersect multiple times, endlessly spinning a web that ties us all together in the very end. Some people have the mentality that if a nobody dies in the gutters that the world will go on without them just the same. This is an unrealistic perspective on the course of humanity. Everyone plays a part in the great story of the human experience, think of your life choices as a domino effect with multiple options that lead in different directions.
I really don't have an overabundance of money in my life right now, but I know I can spare a few dollars to help someone drive home for the night. Maybe I was played, maybe I wasn't - all I know is that karmic debt isn't on my shoulders, it's on theirs. In all honesty, I hope that they either find their way home with that money or they come to a moment of clarity just before they shoot up or get drunk that an honest man gave them twice the money they asked for.
It's important for us to think and act on a positive, loving vibration. Positive-minded individuals are often inspired to express their advice and wisdom through a clever statement. These positive quotes are often brilliant and deserve some reflection on their meaning.